I've come to realize that i need to express myself, i need to breath, i need to rant. I keep running into the same problem - i stay quite when i want to speak out. I feel like many of us have this need, the desire to communicate our ideas to deliberate ideas with someone else.

You know, i think i'm ok being wrong, i just want to make a good case for my idea and be able to debate it.


...so within the last, say 3 minutes, my girlfriend called, and i must give her props, she is the only one that can get under my skin in milli-seconds. And while in know this is an impressive task, its starting to harden the skin and i'm starting to get more annoyed by it than feeling sympathetic toward her. Sometimes i feel like she's just drilling into my head the old-saying "Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me," only multiple that by say 50 trillion or so.

So back to what i was saying earlier...I realize i need to talk. Right now i have a handful of acquaintances, but i don't have anyone that i feel like i can turn to and just talk. You know, just let out all those words that are locked in my skull and let them out in the wild to frolic with the masses. I think they just want to do that, thats why at times i don't like the silence and at other times I vent to people that just aren't ready to deal with what i have to say.

This isnt a picture of my girlfriend and me, but its some picture i got off of Google and Photoshop'ed to kind of symbolize how i feel sometimes with her. Its kind of sad.