i feel like i'm in a hopeless situation. well perhaps not hopeless. maybe futile is a better word. i don't think the situation is hopeless, but the fact that i am still holding on to it and trying to make the best out of it, is hopeless. it seems like i'm been wandering down a dark hallway lately with a flashlight in my hand. i keep the flashlight off, thinking that eventually my night vision will kick-in and i'll be able to see. but instead of my night vision kicking in, I just keep walking blindly down the hall, banging into obscurely placed objects and cursing to myself.
i like how i try to paint a picture of what i'm feeling with far-fetched examples. i do it as a protective measure. maybe if you can figure it out, than you can figure me out. maybe i just want someone to ask me what it all means.
what does it mean?